7:52 p.m. - 2002-12-16
Disney and more...
Ani Difranco-Napoleon
Went to Disney Saturday and Sunday. I wore my 3 inch baby lookin shoes for our performance. BIG MISTAKE! I stood for almost three hours. My feet were killing me! I just wanted to SCREAM,"STOP STOP! MY FEET ARE GONNA FALL OFF!!!!"
The entire time at the hotel I talked to this guy named Chad at the hotel on the phone. Chad's this guy who I've started talking to online, but I've met him before. He lives in Orlando so I thought maybe I should give him a call. I had no "girl talk" with the girls in my room. Seems to me like my friends who I was suppose to stay with didn't really want me there and didn't wanna talk to me as much. Oh well.
My friend R.J. also from Orlando was in Jacksonville when I was in Orlando. I thought that was a coincidence.
Chris finally e-mail me. Twice, but they were talkin about the same subjects. I feel as though he still thinks of me as a friend and not as a girlfriend. Maybe I'm expecting too much of this relationship and what I want from it. Problem is I don't know what he wants...and that's never good. Maybe what I want he doesn't. Who knows cause I certainly don't. I just want this to work out and for him to realize I'm now more than just a friend. But what I really want...I want to love again. and I want him to love me too. But love is not a emotion to toy with. I guess we gotta nuture it, and watch it grow. I just hope it doesn't wither.
