9:58 p.m. - 2002-11-18
FIGHT FIGHT!
No Doubt-Sixteen
I've tolerate so much from my ex when we went out and when we broke up. I guess I couldn't tolerate much of him anymore.
Friday afternoon I was on the way to weight lifting(which I'll explain later) and James was just being an obnoxious jerk and made fun of me. It was a lil joke, but sometimes people tend to build up my nerves and for about a year and couple months of him...I FINALLY slapped him in the face. I turned around and he shoved my head really hard. I turn back around, drop my backpack, and we were asbout to fight. I dunno if he thought it was a playing around fight, but I was just to kick him in the nuts and punch him in the face. But of course I couldn't, not because I was chicken, just cause I couldn't bring myself to fight him. I just pick up my things and walked away. On the way, I started to cry(cause I'm an emotional bitch like that) and my Coach(who's kinda hot)over heard and approach me. I didn't wanna tell him, but I end up doing it anyways. He took me to an administrator even though I told him 5 times I didn't wanna go.
The administrator knew instantly who my ex was cause his grandad works at the school.
James called me over the week end to apologize and I did the same. I just feel really bad cause he might have to go to DDC now. He's been getting into a lot of trouble and when he finally straightens up a lil, he gets in trouble. I dunno whether he deseves it or not.
Today James and I talk to Mr.Finley. I didn't want James to get kicked out again no matter how much of a jerk he's been, but I took all the hostile blame on me. I told Mr.Finley that it's my fault and such. But it made matters worse and now I have a referal and ISS too. I deserve it though. I had no control on myself, but who could blame me.
James and I are still good friends though. So I guess it's all good. We talk ever night, even if we're broken up for like 9 months.
As for weight lifting it all goes to how I said I wanna reform myself. Read here. It's kinda fun. I can bench 60 pounds. heheheh! But I'm proud of myself cause that's half my weight so...=) just be happy for me!
I miss Chris. But I can't do much about it. He's e-mail me once, but I'm still anticipating on a call. gtg.
