6:04 p.m. - 2002-11-01
See you later...
Michelle Branch-Goodbye to you
Chris left Thursday. He didn't even want me or anyone at the airport to see him go. I guess he didn't want to see people cry.
Tuesday- Chris,his mom,Orlando and Frankie came to my house for dinner which me and my mom cooked. We cooked maranade steak,chicken,salad,potato salad,pansit, and cupcakes. I have never cooked for a boyfriend before. I clean the house,my room,scrub the tiles, and cooked! Couldn't believe it. The sad thing was is that Chris's mom gave back the ring, She said to keep it simple. It made me upset when she gave it back, but what can I do? She's right. Later that night, When everyone was about to leave, I had my moment alone with Chris. I just cried in his arms, and he told me I have no reason to cry. That crying is for the weak. We gave our hugs and kisses. Then he left and I ran to the house crying knowing, I won't see him for months.
Weds.- It was Chris's last day and he spent it with his family, which is understandable. I would of done the same. That night I talked to him 9PM to 1:20am for 4 hours and 20 mins. LOL 4:20...But yeah. It was the last time I would of talk to him in a looooooooooooooong long time since he'll be in Japan and mostly on a ship. It would be impossible to call anyone.
When I talked to him that night, it made me feel a closer to him. When it was time to go,since I had school later that day, I started to cry again.
I told him I'll miss him and he says I'll miss you too. Then he said,"You have an option. I'll be away for years and you'll hardly see me. If you can't wait for me anymore, then find someone else." I asked if he can wait for me and if he wanted to break up. He said no and I said,"I don't want to break up with you and I'll wait." We talked a little longer while I cried. Then he said something shocking to me that I didn't expect. Chris said," I love you." and in my sobbing voice I said,"I love you too." I didn't know in what way he meant it.Many possible ways like boyfriend and girlfriend or close friends. But however he meant it, it made me smile. When I said good bye to him, he said it's not good bye. He said,"See you later." I cried myself to sleep and was bummed out for the rest of the day. But I'm going to be at my best to wait for him. I know you're thinking,"What the hell? Why long distance?" I guess all I can say is...I've known him forever and he's worth the wait.
