8:05 p.m. - 2002-10-15
2 guys...one big heartache!
I think I'm cursed. Most of the time when I like a guy, nothing works out. They like me then don't,like me as a friend, or something comes up.
Well...there's this guy named Chris L. I've liked Chris on and off since I was in 8th grade. I was 13...now I'm 17. When I was 13 and he was 14, we were gonna go out, but he didn't ask me out because everyone pressured him. After James and I broke up, I began to like him again sometime afterwards. I also liked him sometime before James. But anyways...
Months ago, I planned to tell Chris that I like him,only he signed up for the Navy. I tried to tell him how I felt, but it was too late cause when I finally worked up the courage, he left without me knowing. Turned out he had a going away party I didn't know about, and when I finally figured he was leaving,he left the next morning at 4 am.
Finally, he's back for less than 2 weeks. And last night we hung out at the mall watched a movie, then went to super Target. While taking me home,I vented everything to him. I told him that I liked him and I couldn't tell him that because he saw me as a sister and he liked someone else. Then I said, I heard you liked me on and off too and he said, I have. Turns out he likes me too. But then he told me he was going to Japan for 4 years, so I may never see him again. It shook me up a lil.
I was sad, and I cried cause I knew I was really gonna miss him. Right when that happened, James called. He heard me crying and ask what's wrong. I was kinda surprise that he was being supportive. I told him about Chris, then I told James how I felt for him again. He told me there's plenty of guys out there and I'll find someone that'll make me happy. That made me feel a lot better. I only have two weeks to hang out with Chris, but I guess nothing is gonna happen between us.
It's so funny though. He's not the type of guy people wouldn't see me with. He's in the navy,listens to rap,doesn't like rock too much, dresses somewhat "preppy/sporty". But stereotyping shouldn't matter. He's basically everything I'm looking for in a guy. 'Cept for him leaving and all. I'm gonna miss him.
