- 2002-09-06
Sooooo much going on!
Drykill-Rot
Watching-Detriot Rock City
So much has happen this week. I shared my ups and downs for the pass 4 days. Mainly with music,school, and boys.
*Tuesday- I went over Harvey's house to make flyers for Oct.5th. Oct.5 is a charity show (poetry club) and suppose to be my first show if all goes well! We went to my friend Derek's house. I had this little crush on him. He's 15(16 soon) though and I'm 17. He use to like me last year,but was afraid James would kick his ass. Well we flirted at his house and he ask me on a "date" but he seemed to nervous. He kept mumbling. It was really sweet.
*Weds.- Went home with Brittney and she re-dye my hair. My parents hated my pink hair and made me dye it back black. She help streak it black. Afterwards we went towards 5 points and ate at this place called Harpoon Louie's. I had fun,singing the Beauty and the Beast song to Caity and Brittany. I was making a fool of myself, but it was funny. Headed out to Thee Imperial to see Brittany's b/f(the drummer) band to play, Defeating Harrison. The show was great and I had fun. This guy Brad who was at the show wanted my number and actually called Thee Imperial to get it. I gave it to the lead singer to give it to him. I doubt he'll call though.
*Thurs.- School was great! Finish painting my mouse in pottery. In Food Prod. baked cookies and had an easy going class in English. I became sick and stayed home from church. I have a sore throat which isn't good cause I need to practice for Oct.5. I talked to Sorcha (my guitarist) and we were discussing songs we should cover. All of a sudden someone was knocking at my door, which scared the fuck out of me since I was alone and it was 8 at night. To my surprise, it was James! I was shocked. He told me he's been trying to call. We talked and we told each other that we still love each other. But his head is way up Chelsea's ass and he still "loves" her. He was feeling down and I guess was torn between me and Chelsea. I told him that I loved him and I've always been here for him, forgave all his misfortunes and yet still love him after all the emotional shit he's hung around my neck. Yeah...isn't that weird. You had no idea how much I miss kissing him, I almost kissed him, but I kissed him on the cheek. He couldn't kiss me cause him and Chelsea are trying to work things out, but he thinks she's leading him on. Of course I ended up crying, but he almost did too. We just cuddled together and I sat there and listen to what troublesome issues he's gotten himself into again. His charges,Chelsea, and our past. He said he wanted to ask me out again, but that would take more time for me to trust him again. I'm kinda confuse. I told him that I thoguht maybe he just had a mere infatuation with her cause how things just seem between thwm, but then again I told him that I was envious cause he has someone else to love and I didn't cause I still loved him. But that was just my opinion and I knew by the expression on his face,he was in shock that I said that to him. But I was just speaking my mind. He called me later that night and told me that who knows what the future will bring. He doesn't want me to actually wait for him, and I don't intend to. If he gets to me first, we'll see what happens. My feelings for James is still there, it's just simmer and settle down by now. Which is a good thing. I'm glad he came by last night. When we talked, I took so much off about what I truly wanted to tell him. Without any tears to gunk up my eyes, well not too many tears. Just little whimpers. But enough about James. I talked to Sorcha and we were trying to come up with songs and band names. We're suppose to have practice soon and we'll see how things work out.
*Friday(today)- I stayed home. My throat is sore like a goat wearing high heels. I haven't had much sleep cause some many thoughts were wandering in my mind. The imsomnia kicked in. Right now I'm thinking about how I actually told James he needed time for himself. Meaning to fly solo for awhile. Hmmm...odd isn't it. He could of been like Take Me Back! But I told him to chill and give himself more time. WoW. I feel overwhelming.
