10:03 p.m. - 2002-08-22
lonely, but happy...i think
Nine Inch Nails-The fragile
I've have been single for six months now. Pretty much everything is great. I've went on some dates and like a guy here and there. But now, I realize how much I miss just to hold someone,kiss him, and tell him sweet words I actually meant. It's not that I become dependant for someone, just someone to cuddle with once and awhile. There are so many happy couples around me that sometimes, it makes me envious that I don't have that anymore...makes me wanna vomit. But I'm on my own, which is semi-good. There are two ways of getting over an ex or a crush. The dependant way and the indepedant way. The dependant way is someone who,when breaking up with an ex, finds someone else promptly. Mostly because they've become so dependant on someone, that they rush into another relationship. Now the independant way is giving time to oneself. Which I have been doing, because well I needed that time to heal. Independance after a relationship is taking time and giving it to yourself. Take a breather!
Relying happiness on someone else I think is wrong. It's more of a convinence and a make an impact on yourself. Good or Bad.
But I still can't help to think, it'll just be great to have a guy to cuddle with,ya know. I know I don't need a guy, in fact I'm not really looking, but it's just that I miss being loved and giving love in return...damn "emoness"
