9:25 p.m. - 2002-08-14
Some guys can be nice...
There's this guy that likes me, but he's 21, so there's no intention for me to go out with him cause obviously he's too old. Atleast I think so. But he showed me a sweet poem about the future girl he wants to be with. Which by the way, I've decided...it's not gonna be me! Sorry!
Empty Obsession
I live only to find you and, the more patient I am the more it hurts
like hell.
You are completely anonymous to me, but somehow I know you better than I know
myself. My life is complete confusion and emptiness. I'm dying to find a
purpose...I must find you.
Father take me now if I'm to wait forever and a day only to lose. I
find my own tears drowning me. Park benches are still damp in painful
memories where my heart once bled freely. Utter agony of times that have
passed stabs at me and deep into my hollow faith in the future. I use to feel
so much compassion for the world and people's endless suffering, but
selfishness has taken over, and I've become transparent.
For you I would leave behind everyone I love and everything I've ever
owned, and crush my own beliefs...all of this just to know your name. I
would part the sea, move mountains, change the sun, moon and the stars...if
only to have you close. I would walk on water, burn down the heavens, and
rip angels from their wings, freeze over hell, execute the idea of sin and
dissolve the idea of absolute purity...just to taste your lips. I would do
anything it would take. You are worth any supreme sacrifice.
To have your skin meet mine, to touch your face, gaze into your eyes
would bring tears to my eyes and my soul to its knees. I have never known
you, but I can smell you when I awake, feel the grooves in the sheets where
you slept, and feel you inside my clothes.
Never a day shall pass where I don't think of my everlasting love for
a person I've never even laid eyes on. Even the strongest four letter word
is to weak to support my emotions which dance in waiting and eternal hope.
-Jon
But anywho! I still haven't found a teacher to sponsor the poetry club that I wanna start! I only can hope that I make this happen! All the teachers I've requested are too busy with other activites. *sighs* I hope things will be looking up soon.
