10:01 p.m. - 2002-07-14
Yet again another strange day!!!!!!
Today was one of those days when you wake up and you know something is gonna make your day an unusual day. And it was. I only had 3 hours of sleep last night. Went to church and came home early cause I was feeling sick. Took a nap,woke up, and someone rang the doorbell. I open the door and it was Cole. A friend of mine I rarely ever see. My first reaction and words were,"Oh my gosh, what the fuck are you doing here?!?" It was weird! Out of nowhere! He came to get his books and I asked how'd he get here and who was he with. He said, James...and I said oh...(and I felt my heart ripped open a lil bit more.) Gave him the books and slammed the door. I was in shocked, kinda pissed but also sad. I think his new g/f was in the car with him. He didn't come down to say hi or anything. Only Cole.
Then the phone rang, I picked it up and I kept saying hello,hello?!? But all I heard was the radio of an woman singing. So I hung up, but it was cryptic because the same thing happen to Jazz, but the song that was playing was Dirty Dancing. Then someone called again, but this time it was a guy yelling at me demanding for Kevin. I told him he had the wrong number.
I became bored and yet still a bit shaken the fact James came over, but said nothing to me. So I wanted to get out of the house and called many people up. Got ahold of Erin. She was at some lounge bar cause her daddy's party. So I ended up hanging out with her and at a bar full of drunkards.
Everyone was singing karaoke and somehow they signed me up. I request "Don't Speak" by No Doubt. Went up to the mic and sung, pretending that James was there. It was the only way I thought to sing it, from my heart, where I meant it. Of course he wasn't there, but who cares. I thought I had to get ovre my fear if I wanted to lead sing for a band. Before, I use to do it with ease, but I had no problen. It was fun! Erin was cheering me on and the crowd applaused and gave their praises for me.
Then we ended up picking up Annette at some girls house. I called up Will and told him I was with his woman. I asked him if he knew who it was and he said," Of course I reconize your midget voice!" So I hung up on him and Annette got mad and called him back.Then Erin took me and Annette home. Maybe later I might go to Denny's to treat out Chris L. since he's leaving.
